June Closing/ July Opening Intuitive Writing Share

Part One: June Closing Card- Bobinsana - Trust

I am describing what stands out in the cards that got drawn for me for June closing out and July coming. I just make notes of things that resonate or stand out both in the image and in the keywords and message.

Images that stood out to me and intuitive whisperings about those images before reading the message

-“The spinning arrow is pointing you towards your path” a line from Pocahontas, the Disney movie.

- Light- listen to your inner light, light codes intertwined and coded into your DNA and ancestry, the ultimate guidance

-Whale - dreams and intuitive knowing carries what you need

Phrases and Words that stood out in the message

-the ultimate state of recievership

-reverse meaning : lack of self worth

- expansive intuition and lucid dreaming

- Reminding us not to forget the necessary power of self love

 -pay close attention to messages encoded in symbols and dreams

Evidence Secured -Lol

Pocahontas was, one of my favorite Disney characters she represents not picking a path presented to her but learning to find her own path. She was not afraid to explore and even break rules if her inner guidance told her to do so she wasn't even afraid to go against her family's traditions.

 Pocahontas feels purple and indigo the color of intuition and inner sight people think of cancer zodiac sign as about running on passions and whims, I mean emotional impulses but I see it more about listening to something that is ethereal and felt.

In the movie Pocahontas, Captain John Smith shows a willingness to shed his own ideas and limits and try to see the world through Pocahontas eyes including her inner emotional world, he was a true explorer.

I started June with this month's mantra, “you are made in the image of God you are God's perfect gift”

On June 12^th, I was working on being in a sacred presence realizing I am allowed to simply just exist. I don't have to be extra. I can respond in this moment, meaning how I truly feel and what is on my tongue, it doesn’t have to be perfect and I don’t have to my mindset on other people’s reactions to what I say trying anticipate or control them. I don't have to anticipate people's needs.

Then on June 13^th, I did a tarot spread: 5 cups, the hangman, king of pentacles and I realized I am full of gifts and have things to offer the world when I thought I was empty handed. I started to let simple things. I was starting to let things be simple not and letting go of things needing to be perfect settling for balance and satisfactory over perfection.  Less than perfect used to feel like settling for failure but it's not it's allowing me to just be me and not everything for everyone.

June 22nd I spent a week and a half playing like I was at grandma's house, playing video games, watching TV, making fun meals and hanging out with a cat ( the one thing I would never do at grandma’s)  and reflecting on how to start doing things for fun and enjoyment instead of producing something to be liked.  It's time to be me, not liked.  What is fun and enjoyable, just for me? Just for me, no intentions to produce something meaningful or make any money at all, just for me?

Part 2 Goodbye Now Hello New Now.  

In June I also journaled about how each season is new now. This weekend  I journaled about feeling the need to make the most of everything, my time at cat sitting and not wanting to waste a minute I think this could be more of that fear tactic, this learned urgency that is sold to us by marketing, making the year feel fleeting so they can sell you more things because tomorrow it will be gone, when the day is done month is done I often feel this learned regret because I feel like I didn't use it wisely.  No more false urgency, it puts me in fight or flight, come home to now, to the present, it's being received every minute, every day, every month, every season. Each season offers a new flavor but it's still a new now.  At the end of my July moment, I want to feel satisfied and my thirst quenched and a path to find a liminal space

Part 3 Mugwort- Psychic Healing

Another card pulled, Mugwort

What stands out on this card:

- sparkles

-the owl

Sparkles on the woman's hair and around her face.

I want to talk about how being likable is equivalent to being the nice guy. The nice guy puts on the persona of being sweet and your friend and what you want so he can get laid his mask comes off when it doesn't go to plan. I've been likable for so long. I don’t want to be laid but I want to be loved and have belonging and to avoid cross faces.

Coming home to me and trading in my likability for being the real me is me entering into a liminal space. Me being me naturally filters out what is not for me. I used to think when people got upset with me for not being what they wanted I was in trouble, and I was doing something wrong but that was actually a buffer for them not everyone gets access to the real me they must be willing to walk through winding fairy paths and find secrets glens. They must be real explorers. They must be able to read Indigo and blue and purple.  I used to think I was doing something wrong being me, that it was me choosing to hide and make worlds on my own excluding people but being yourself, your true self is a liminal space, you are the fairy and the fairy glen fairy.

July is going to be a liminal space.  A space of fairy flies- fireflies, a mysterious kind of silence that leaves space for wonder and for another to come and join you and seek you out in this same liminal space, like a pet that comes and asks for pets and comes to bask in the sun with you.